Get the fuck out of my head!!!!

I can't take it anymore! U smuthered me when u were here and u're smuthering me now! I can't deal with this... No human being can. Please just let him go please...
Sometimes I wish I were so drugged that my mind would just shut down and I could become a vegetable. Why not? Vegetables don't suffer. I'd spend the day with spit running down the edge of my mouth and looking at a spot on the wall.
That would be my world. I'd rather be a zombie than an empty shell that still has the possibilty to think and feel.
I wish u would just die in my mind. I wish u could be a distante memory that I would only remeber once in my lifetime...
Please let him go! For my sake... Please let him go.........